UPDATE:
I originally wrote this back in 2020 after bringing our sweet miracle home from the NICU. At the time, I didn’t know if anyone would ever read it—but it felt too sacred to delete. And just in case someone finds themselves on a similar path, I hope these words offer a bit of comfort and a glimpse of God’s intentional care through every step.

Since then, our journey has taken some unexpected turns. We experienced the heartbreak of miscarriage with our second child—yet we hold onto hope, knowing we’ll meet them in Heaven one day. Just when we thought our family was complete, we were surprised by the gift of our little man. Due to medical reasons, and after much prayer and wise counsel, we made the decision that he would be our last.

Our road hasn’t been easy. But we’ve never walked it alone. And today, we are deeply—overwhelmingly—grateful for the two little people we get to love.

If you’re someone who has faced, or is currently facing, infertility or loss, please know my heart is with you. If you’re walking through that season alone, I hope you’ll reach out. I may not have all the right words, but I’d be honored to sit with you in it.

More than anything, I pray that our story whispers encouragement and hope.

—April

From our season of infertility to our NICU days at UNC, this little girl has been wrapped in prayer and hope from the very beginning. Pregnancy and birth during the height of COVID was a wild ride—one I didn’t always navigate perfectly. And now, as I look at her growing up in a world filled with fear, division, and injustice, I often feel overwhelmed. Like every mom, I want to protect her, to be perfect for her, to give her every opportunity to thrive.

I know I won’t always be able to protect her. And I’m learning to be confident even in my imperfection. But what I can do is pursue wisdom—to love her well, lead her with grace, and pray over her with intention.

This year, that pursuit has led me to the stories of women of faith—women who walked closely with God and made an impact in their communities. They weren’t perfect, but their lives echo Paul’s encouragement to the Corinthians: “Imitate me as I imitate Christ” (1 Corinthians 11:1). I’ve received so many wonderful recommendations, and I’m excited to share them.

Some posts will be reflections from our own journey. Others will come from my reading. A few may be journal entries I’ve written to Maggie. Wherever you are on your own path, I hope these words bring you encouragement and remind you that you’re not alone.